Wednesday, January 18, 2012


Seriously, I'm someone who sets a goal to post every other day. Or, at least 3 times a week. And I have NOT been making that goal.

Which is horrible! Because I have a new camera and everything! But I'm not using it. Or, I am, but not enough. Or, maybe it's just that right now we're not doing too many exciting things...

We're trying to get back into the swing of school. I've tried really hard to get a better schedule for next semester, so I have crammed all my classes into the morning, or taken them online. This way I don't have to pay as much for daycare, and also Buddy gets to be home for a few hours in-between daycare and his ever-changing flow of babysitters.

The only consequence of this schedule is that we now have to wake up an hour earlier to get to school on time. And that's not a HUGE deal, but it's tough because we're used to having a nice calm hour and a half to get ready, and now he either has to wake up earlier (which is hard since he barely gets enough sleep as it is) or he has to sacrifice his morning TV show/lazing around snuggling with momma. And he doesn't like either option.
Buddy at 1:30 this afternoon (he doesn't usually take naps anymore.)
 Honestly, neither do I... especially since there is no way I can get him to bed earlier at night and I always have at least 1 1/2 hours of homework plus now I'm doing more online classes which is gonna be way more work. And usually I don't have a chance to do the homework until after Bud goes to bed, so that means I'm not gonna get enough sleep either.

Ugh. Goodnight everyone. I'm too busy worrying about things that have already happened/things that may never happen to make any sense. Hooray anxiety and depression.

P.S. I started taking Vitamin D about a week ago now, hopefully that will help.
P.P.S. My grandma sent me a sun-lamp, I'm trying it out and it's tough to find time to sit in front of it for an hour or so... but I'm hoping that will help too.
P.P.P.S. I'm worrying that none of it is going to help. Because the worrying has gotten so out of control recently. I think I may need to go back to counseling at the very least, maybe even have a meeting with my Dr.

Damn it. (Excuse the language.)


  1. Try using the sun lamp while you do your homework. It should also help keep you awake as you study.

  2. It does keep me awake to study, but it also screws up my sleep really bad so then I can't even fall asleep when I'm able to... it was a good idea though!